She has such a kind soul, almost too kind for this dark black world. She
is like a white bunny rabbit running through a dark twisted forest. I
am the wolf. I try to devour her. I did devour her. Chomping at her soul
bit by bit. She is not helpless but she sacrifices herself to me. This
is why she is so amazing. Taking in my pain little by little, as i bite
into her soul. Why would someone do this for me. Why do i need to bite
into someone soul just to feel loved.
I trust her with my life, trust i did not give to her very easily.
Trust I do not give away very often. But she earned my trust with her
tears. She paid for my trust with everything she could give. I earned
nothing. I just took. I never can trust anyone most of the time. But I
trust her completely. She has never let me down even though she had ever
right to do so. I tested her oh so many times, expecting her to fail
and show me a reason to run. She now has my loyalty for life.
A tear rolls down my wolf of a face. Wanting to hold onto her as
long as I can, holding her so tight, knowing she is slipping out of my
hands. I know what the true reality is, but she does not. She ignores it
for a better world. But maybe her world is better., maybe it is real.
I grab her body again, wrapping it around mine. I caress her body
and kiss her so gently on her belly. She sweats all over me and i sweat
on her. Two bodies moving in the dark, she mones for me, she grabs my
body sinking her fingernails into me, into my soul. I do not want this
to end but I see it ending. Not of my doing but of my making. I caused
this pain in her and in myself.
But she still loves me and treats me as a friend. I do not deserve
her and not in the sappy romantic movie sense of the phrase. i really do
not deserve her. I grab onto her one more time as she gives in to me
and takes my anger, push by push, deeper and deeper into her. She yells
and gasps. I feel her love in my sex like a shock of lighting frying my
heart in a frying pan.
She says I only lust, that I only want to eat her body and to
destroy her. This can not be true, for if it is, then I am surly dammed
and a lost soul never to be found.I plead for her to find me. But how
can she. I can not even find my self.
